Empty head!!!

Back from the vacation as yes this sucks..so i am gonna rant here for bit :-)

The holidays were superb and what better than home food and no work to do. Wish i could have more holidays.

During my stay i was pretty disappointed by the display of civic sense by majority of the people. The spending power has increased rapidly in last few years and now more and more people have access to better resources which is very good but may be they have to learn how to keep their feet on the ground. My experience on different counts ranged from funny, scary to disgusting. Indore has changed a lot now..people don't follow rules..do not believe in queues..do not respect others..may be that has to do a lot with people from smaller cities have migrated to Indore..nothing against this..and NO..i am not supporter of Raj Thackrey..but only thing is they have to mix in the city and make it more beautiful rather than breaking rules and make it impossible to live in..or may be..i am used to live in metros..

In a fix right now..have a offer for a very good finance company located in Hyderabad..and in the mean time doing well in current organization, got through a certification course which holds good value..so not sure which one to choose..i might need some advice..the hyd company offer is too good..not sure what to do..

Heard this song..and is in mind from some time now..

Agony!!!

12.30 am now as i stare at the clock right across the hall which seems to be mocking at me. Last 2-3 days have been emotionally draining. I am at my home since a week now and as usual my parents were ready with the list of prospective girls. Home trip was always a relaxing holiday for me but has been more challenging now from last 2-3 occasions. I don't blame my parents but i still feel arrange marriage is not my cup of tea. After giving me a much needed breather i was made to meet a girl with very different name. First look was not very exciting but i have grown from the phase where looks mattered much..i spoke to her and felt she was very smart and spoke well. Her tiring look spoke well about the journey she had in amazing Andamans. My parents were not convinced enough but i insisted to have another meeting..and wanted to know her more. How can you decide something important as this in single meeting? I called her and decided to meet her today. Met her at the CCD where we had very good conversation. She appeared sweet, innocent and friendly. I enjoyed talking to her. I somehow felt i gave her some positive signals but it was more of a friendly talk. I like girls who respond well and have good sense of humour. We had coffee and headed straight to a popular food joint where she saw me gorging on a amazing hotdog (not in literal sense :) but is made out of omelette and bread). She accompanied me in my car where i dropped her back to CCD where she had her vehicle parked. As we waved each other goodbye, i knew everybody back home would be waiting for my reaction..as i drove back..i somehow didn't feel the magic..which i would feel for my prospective bride (the click moment..yes still believe in it). Am i expecting more?

Sorry S....you are very good person and i wish you could remain my friend..you are perfect but may be i am looking for some imperfection to match mine..wish you all the best and happiness..

Tomorrow as my mom would make it official by refusing their proposal my heart would sink..i really hate to say NO..i just cant. May be this is part of the game and have to say NO until its YES..but this game is dirty and i hate it..