Asking you to stay.
The words are finally here.
Let's rewind.
And rewind.
See you're the only star,
In the film I never made.
Would you rewind it all the time?
Rewind it all the time.
In the driveway,
see you pull in.
And my heart stops when you're stalling.
As if the phone rang, and you're calling.
Now you're backing up,
it's a long way out.
I'm asking you to stay.
The words are finally here,
Let's rewind.
Would you rewind it all the time?
See you're the only star in the film I never made.
Would you rewind it all the time?
Rewind it all the time.
Do we make it to the sequel?
A second chance for our survival.
Well we all need a hallmark ending,
And we change your heart.
It's a long way out.
That's what you said.
Would you rewind it all the time?
Rewind it all the time.
I'm asking you to stay,
the words are finally here.
let's rewind.
Would you rewind it all the time?
Heard this "How i met your mother Season 5". Difficult to get this song out of my head. I did not notice this song when i saw this series first couple of months ago. Was flipping through TV channels and stopped on Star world where this serial was on and this song caught my attention. Ted coincidentally goes on the date with same girl after 7 years and wishes to rewind the time and make things right..
We really want to rewind those special moments of our life isn't it? This song brought all those memories back..Wish we would have rewind button in our life..may be we would have cleaned up the mess which had happened :)
Feeling low these days..just want to write more and feel better...
Ciao
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
God I am not coming to you!!!!
A very hectic week gone by, was attending training over the weekend. Training which wasn't much useful. What a way to ruin the weekend. But this post is not related to my rants. I came across a wonderful article in Sunday TOI. It was under section "Survivor Tales" and was about Sanjay Khan. For people who don't know him, he played Tipu Sultan in his famous serial The Sword of Tipu Sultan. I remember those days when this serial was being telecast on DD. Don't remember the year but could be early 90's. This was the first serial which impressed me because of its action and bravery of Tipu Sultan. We used to imitate Tipu Sultan during Dusshera buying wooden swords and fighting with each other. Coming back to article, Sanjay Khan suffered with accident on the sets of his serial which caused him major injuries. The extent of his injuries could be imagined considering he suffered 65 percent third degree burns, he underwent 72 surgeries and chances of his survival were zero. His heart stopped beating on three of the surgeries.What can keep the man living under this circumstances? He says, willingness and courage was the only way he could have survived this. He used to dictate notes to his nurse about his future plans and dreams. He always wanted to live and always had this feeling rooted deeply in his mind and heart. He used to stare outside the hospital window with firm determination to fly out..
How important it is to think positive isn't it? Its all about what's in your mind and the way it controls almost everything in your life. If things are right and if mind is disturbed, it shows up on you..even though you are physically fit..
He says further how his mind sometimes was stuck by negative thoughts, but seeing a lady in the hospital whose hands and legs were cut in half gave him strength..made him feel thankful for the life he is bestowed with..
We always complain of what we don't have and how our life is miserable without something. But we should consider ourselves lucky and think of those people who are less fortunate and have to work hard and still struggle for basic essentials of life.
Article was concluded with a message: When you are living, don't act dead..LIVE..so true..
Three cheers to such champions of life..
How important it is to think positive isn't it? Its all about what's in your mind and the way it controls almost everything in your life. If things are right and if mind is disturbed, it shows up on you..even though you are physically fit..
He says further how his mind sometimes was stuck by negative thoughts, but seeing a lady in the hospital whose hands and legs were cut in half gave him strength..made him feel thankful for the life he is bestowed with..
We always complain of what we don't have and how our life is miserable without something. But we should consider ourselves lucky and think of those people who are less fortunate and have to work hard and still struggle for basic essentials of life.
Article was concluded with a message: When you are living, don't act dead..LIVE..so true..
Three cheers to such champions of life..
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Love Actually!!! -1
Back to the "Love" post..he he..seems like favorite topic for me these days..After a long tiring day..i didn't had anything else to do but watch a movie. I realized i have my friend's DVD with me. The movie titled "Love Actually". Wasn't sure if i should watch this, i am not much into romantic movies i prefer action movies and can watch back to back anyday..but nothing else seemed more interesting then..so i decided to go with it. I was frankly quite surprised by watching this movie.It was different than those traditional Love stories. Somehow makes you believe in love, which can happen to anyone anywhere and anytime...
Love is different at each stage of life isn't it? It has whole lot of different meaning at each stage of your life. While it is innocent,sweet in teens..gets daring, bold and stylish during college and it matures in a way in early and mid twenties. I will talk about my own experiences in this post and other one or two to follow. This is my perspective which i want to write here. I have seen all the three stages now. First two were though were more of infatuation. Blame it to the age ;) when i look at them now..i share a good laugh.
I won't take names here while i write about it but will use random alphabets for their names. This is the first of 2-3 parts(yeah..not many of them :) but enough to make me write here..)
I had my first real crush when i was in class 10th, it was 1998-1999. I couldn't resist looking at her as soon as she entered our classroom. She was new admission in our batch. Tall, long hair..not much but enough to be perfect, big round eyes :). She was tensed as soon as she entered the classroom. Class teacher asked her to introduce herself. She silently stood up and with hesitant voice introduced herself as A. We could sense she was bit uncomfortable with the new environment around with guys staring at her and girls staring with piercing look as to why the boys are staring :) I was impressed by her charm. Later that day as school was finished and all were busy to catch their buses, i secretly went back to class and then to her desk and wrote "Hi and Welcome" on her bench. Not sure if she ever realized it..but this silly thing was heart driven..i still don't understand why i did that.. he he..
In following days..she was suddenly hot topic for all the guys. Look on girls faces was worth looking. It was not that they were not pretty but suddenly they had new entrant in their kingdom who could dethrone them :) from their years of rule.
Days went by and one saturday i took courage of speaking to her. It was nothing much but asking for her classwork notebook. I remember when i first spoke to her my heart went crazy..i had no idea what did i say to her or what was her response..my mind just went blank..my friends still laugh about it whenever we remember those days. Slowly our friendship grew. We exchanged phone numbers and started talking over the phone..
I was passionate about being a cricketer back in those days and was seriously preparing for school cricket tournament with my team. I was fielding on the boundary in the middle of a hot day, i noticed group of girls near our ground. Suddenly one girl broke the group and came towards me..she was "A", my heart was unstoppable..she came near me and wished me luck for the match. I was on top of the world..i couldn't believe my ears and wanted to rewind that moment again and again..those small but special moments are so important..when you know you have a different feeling for someone..
I couldn't understand this feeling but then i realized i was in "Love". I guess it was more of infatuation then but the feeling was strong. Suddenly i could feel her in all the songs i used to hear. DDLJ songs always topped my list. Boyzone and Backstreet boys were "in" those days. I used to write her name at the back of my notebook..We used to speak for hours daily without a break..I recently learnt how to drive a scooter..most of my rounds were in and around her house which was almost 10kms from my house..but these things didn't matter. My friends convinced me to express my feelings to her. Friends were such a influence those days..
I expressed my feeling almost after 4 months of our friendship over the phone. She asked me to meet behind our school canteen..I was bit surprised and nervous as to why..during our lunch break i promised her to meet there. Since no one was allowed to go there, i sneaked through the back door and was waiting for her..after 20 mins i saw her coming towards me..my heart was pounding..i didn't know what would be her reaction..will she be furious and wont talk to me again? or will she complain to my principal..i had thousands of such questions..Here she came..and...
More to follow!!!
Love is different at each stage of life isn't it? It has whole lot of different meaning at each stage of your life. While it is innocent,sweet in teens..gets daring, bold and stylish during college and it matures in a way in early and mid twenties. I will talk about my own experiences in this post and other one or two to follow. This is my perspective which i want to write here. I have seen all the three stages now. First two were though were more of infatuation. Blame it to the age ;) when i look at them now..i share a good laugh.
I won't take names here while i write about it but will use random alphabets for their names. This is the first of 2-3 parts(yeah..not many of them :) but enough to make me write here..)
I had my first real crush when i was in class 10th, it was 1998-1999. I couldn't resist looking at her as soon as she entered our classroom. She was new admission in our batch. Tall, long hair..not much but enough to be perfect, big round eyes :). She was tensed as soon as she entered the classroom. Class teacher asked her to introduce herself. She silently stood up and with hesitant voice introduced herself as A. We could sense she was bit uncomfortable with the new environment around with guys staring at her and girls staring with piercing look as to why the boys are staring :) I was impressed by her charm. Later that day as school was finished and all were busy to catch their buses, i secretly went back to class and then to her desk and wrote "Hi and Welcome" on her bench. Not sure if she ever realized it..but this silly thing was heart driven..i still don't understand why i did that.. he he..
In following days..she was suddenly hot topic for all the guys. Look on girls faces was worth looking. It was not that they were not pretty but suddenly they had new entrant in their kingdom who could dethrone them :) from their years of rule.
Days went by and one saturday i took courage of speaking to her. It was nothing much but asking for her classwork notebook. I remember when i first spoke to her my heart went crazy..i had no idea what did i say to her or what was her response..my mind just went blank..my friends still laugh about it whenever we remember those days. Slowly our friendship grew. We exchanged phone numbers and started talking over the phone..
I was passionate about being a cricketer back in those days and was seriously preparing for school cricket tournament with my team. I was fielding on the boundary in the middle of a hot day, i noticed group of girls near our ground. Suddenly one girl broke the group and came towards me..she was "A", my heart was unstoppable..she came near me and wished me luck for the match. I was on top of the world..i couldn't believe my ears and wanted to rewind that moment again and again..those small but special moments are so important..when you know you have a different feeling for someone..
I couldn't understand this feeling but then i realized i was in "Love". I guess it was more of infatuation then but the feeling was strong. Suddenly i could feel her in all the songs i used to hear. DDLJ songs always topped my list. Boyzone and Backstreet boys were "in" those days. I used to write her name at the back of my notebook..We used to speak for hours daily without a break..I recently learnt how to drive a scooter..most of my rounds were in and around her house which was almost 10kms from my house..but these things didn't matter. My friends convinced me to express my feelings to her. Friends were such a influence those days..
I expressed my feeling almost after 4 months of our friendship over the phone. She asked me to meet behind our school canteen..I was bit surprised and nervous as to why..during our lunch break i promised her to meet there. Since no one was allowed to go there, i sneaked through the back door and was waiting for her..after 20 mins i saw her coming towards me..my heart was pounding..i didn't know what would be her reaction..will she be furious and wont talk to me again? or will she complain to my principal..i had thousands of such questions..Here she came..and...
More to follow!!!
Friday, September 10, 2010
And Again!!!!
Its 2:03 am on the clock and i should be sleeping..but sleep is far from my eyes. My mind is blank..no thoughts whats so ever..Some thing is hurting me within..what? i don't have any clue..It seems i am living a dubious life..life for others..for my family..friends..cousins..relatives..since when in last few years i have lived for myself? Few years ago i lived on pleasing someone..later my family..then my colleagues at work..now my friends..Weekends are nothing more than compulsive time being spent with people, who need a company. I am used as a scapegoat at work..as crowd within friends..as timepass with few relatives. I don't know if i am even making some sense here..but i want to change all this. I want to live for myself for sometime..be "Rohan" for sometime now.I have never said "No" to anyone, for anything..but now the time has come to finally do what i want..to live life on my own terms..to do what i like..to have some peace.
Worked today..even though there was holiday for us..just because a lady colleague couldn't work at the weekend. Who else could fill in the spot? Rohan..why? he is free on weekend..why? He is a bachelor and stays 1300kms away from his place..so is always available on weekends..what?????? Are you kidding me?
I am always spreading happiness all around..i am never sarcastic..never bitter to people around me..regardless from what i feel within...but i never got a return in my favor. This makes me think that is it something wrong which i do? Should i be selfish as others?
I remember last year same time i was slogging at the office in Bangalore working day n night for 3 months on a migration project alone..my client didn't had money to pay us for that job..but as a good will i still finished the job convincing my manager. I had suffered hand injury from my road accident during that time..but i still finished the job on time..i am yet to hear a "ThankYou" for that job..leave alone a "Well Done" email. I can't help but smile when i visit their website.
What do you do when you face such situations? I miss a friend..i lost one this year..wish i could have one to talk. Feel helpless..feel terrible..
I am fooled yet again today..something about which i cannot even write here...but not anymore..i wont change my ways but i will not allow anyone to take advantage of me..This is new me from NOW...
Worked today..even though there was holiday for us..just because a lady colleague couldn't work at the weekend. Who else could fill in the spot? Rohan..why? he is free on weekend..why? He is a bachelor and stays 1300kms away from his place..so is always available on weekends..what?????? Are you kidding me?
I am always spreading happiness all around..i am never sarcastic..never bitter to people around me..regardless from what i feel within...but i never got a return in my favor. This makes me think that is it something wrong which i do? Should i be selfish as others?
I remember last year same time i was slogging at the office in Bangalore working day n night for 3 months on a migration project alone..my client didn't had money to pay us for that job..but as a good will i still finished the job convincing my manager. I had suffered hand injury from my road accident during that time..but i still finished the job on time..i am yet to hear a "ThankYou" for that job..leave alone a "Well Done" email. I can't help but smile when i visit their website.
What do you do when you face such situations? I miss a friend..i lost one this year..wish i could have one to talk. Feel helpless..feel terrible..
I am fooled yet again today..something about which i cannot even write here...but not anymore..i wont change my ways but i will not allow anyone to take advantage of me..This is new me from NOW...
Saturday, September 4, 2010
:):)
Weeks are getting crazier for me than they used to ..nice isn't it? When do we have weeks which we call "different" than previous ones? I am drifting away from boring weekends i used to have for quite sometime.
I have three things which are most important to me as of now..my family, my work and my mean machine 200cc bike. Anything bad with one of these pisses me big time and drives me crazy until and unless i fix the problem. Luckily the first two are doing good but my bike has been suffering lately. Mostly because i don't get to drive much since i take a cab to office, considering i still have "KA-03" flashing on the number plate but more importantly chennai's horrible climate. Week started with fixing my bike..my struggle on monday and tuesday finally showed results and now the machine is alive and kicking :) I know, this might sound odd to people reading this but i truly love my bike from heart. It's my passion..it is my real stress buster..and holds special place in my heart for other reasons as well.
Wednesday and Thursday were dull..i had caught cold and had fever so took off for a day. My first sick leave this year. I hate to stay at home when i just have to confine within boundaries of my bed. So i thought of utilizing most of my time on social networking sites..Fb and other social networking sites are really amazing..i spotted my friend with whom i didn't speak from last 10 years..he was a school friend but we lost contact since he left school..spoke to him for 2 hrs and relived all those great moments..Three cheers to Fb.
Friday..my favorite day of the week..was as usual full of energy and enthu..i love fridays..gives you a feeling that the weekend has already started. Office was brighter with no boring formals and looked good that day..wish we didn't had a dress code..although i don't follow that. I remember my bangalore days when we used to spend fridays at TGIF or Take5. TGIF!!! love the name..so true..left the office early and went straight to Nissan showroom for a Nissan Micra test drive..wow i was impressed..wonderful car with great engine..definitely on my top 5. I am a shahrukh khan fan so was inclined towards i10 but this one tops the chart. Sorry Shahrukh..Ranbir has a better choice :) Car is in my wishlist for 2011..hopefully my ever depreciating bank balance would allow me to have one. My secret wish is to have this Yamaha bike which is 1000+ cc bike..which would cost around 20lakhs :):)..one day..one day..
Saturday was rainy day in Chennai..Rains..what is so special in rains which bring smile to our face? It means different to different people. Some like to enjoy rains sitting at their homes sipping a cup of tea and hot bhajias..(I love this...)...some prefer hotter drinks :), but for me its all about long drives..i love to go out in rain with group of very good friends to near by good spots..i prefer to go on a bike than a car..with rain drops splashing on the face..this feeling is unmatched..tonight i returned from my friends place at 12 in the night..it was dark and raining heavily..needless to say there was not much traffic and i could drive fast in the rains..just as i like..wow..still could feel that adrenaline rush!!!
Saw this wonderful song..i would love to go on a ride like that with my future gf/wife :)
Wanted to write something serious this week..but leaving it for the next time..Thank u rain..
I have three things which are most important to me as of now..my family, my work and my mean machine 200cc bike. Anything bad with one of these pisses me big time and drives me crazy until and unless i fix the problem. Luckily the first two are doing good but my bike has been suffering lately. Mostly because i don't get to drive much since i take a cab to office, considering i still have "KA-03" flashing on the number plate but more importantly chennai's horrible climate. Week started with fixing my bike..my struggle on monday and tuesday finally showed results and now the machine is alive and kicking :) I know, this might sound odd to people reading this but i truly love my bike from heart. It's my passion..it is my real stress buster..and holds special place in my heart for other reasons as well.
Wednesday and Thursday were dull..i had caught cold and had fever so took off for a day. My first sick leave this year. I hate to stay at home when i just have to confine within boundaries of my bed. So i thought of utilizing most of my time on social networking sites..Fb and other social networking sites are really amazing..i spotted my friend with whom i didn't speak from last 10 years..he was a school friend but we lost contact since he left school..spoke to him for 2 hrs and relived all those great moments..Three cheers to Fb.
Friday..my favorite day of the week..was as usual full of energy and enthu..i love fridays..gives you a feeling that the weekend has already started. Office was brighter with no boring formals and looked good that day..wish we didn't had a dress code..although i don't follow that. I remember my bangalore days when we used to spend fridays at TGIF or Take5. TGIF!!! love the name..so true..left the office early and went straight to Nissan showroom for a Nissan Micra test drive..wow i was impressed..wonderful car with great engine..definitely on my top 5. I am a shahrukh khan fan so was inclined towards i10 but this one tops the chart. Sorry Shahrukh..Ranbir has a better choice :) Car is in my wishlist for 2011..hopefully my ever depreciating bank balance would allow me to have one. My secret wish is to have this Yamaha bike which is 1000+ cc bike..which would cost around 20lakhs :):)..one day..one day..
Saturday was rainy day in Chennai..Rains..what is so special in rains which bring smile to our face? It means different to different people. Some like to enjoy rains sitting at their homes sipping a cup of tea and hot bhajias..(I love this...)...some prefer hotter drinks :), but for me its all about long drives..i love to go out in rain with group of very good friends to near by good spots..i prefer to go on a bike than a car..with rain drops splashing on the face..this feeling is unmatched..tonight i returned from my friends place at 12 in the night..it was dark and raining heavily..needless to say there was not much traffic and i could drive fast in the rains..just as i like..wow..still could feel that adrenaline rush!!!
Saw this wonderful song..i would love to go on a ride like that with my future gf/wife :)
Wanted to write something serious this week..but leaving it for the next time..Thank u rain..
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